Monday, 23 January 2012

Finding Love 2.


Sad Lonely Woman


The weekend went so fast with Victoria busy taking care of Ayomikun. She always do have the laugh of her life with series of questions she asks. Victoria smiled to herself as she remembered her last enquirer.
"Aunty V" Ayomikun called out.
"Yes honey" Victoria answered giving her full attention.
"When will you come for sleep over at my house" She asked.
"Well, I don't know, I guess I haven't been invited" Victoria answered feeling cheeky.
"Well, I asked my Daddy and he said I should have faith" She said smiling.
"Hmm" Victoria said wondering.
"He said he's working on that" Ayomikun said again.
"Oh, I see!" Victoria said. "Then you need to have faith" She said smiling at her.
"Yes Aunty V, I need to have faith, can you buy it for me, pleaseeeee" She said looking up to her.
"Oh dear!" Victoria laughed. "We can't buy faith" She said
"Oh!" Ayomikun said disappointed. "Why?", She asked.
"Don't be sad, for you to have faith, you have to believe that you will get what you want" Victoria said.
"What!" Ayomikun said confused.
"Alright, you know God loves you. so when you have faith, you have to believe in God to give you what you want" She said.
"So God can give me faith" Ayomikun said excited.
"Yes" Victoria replied.
"Then I will ask Him" She said excited.

The topic went on and on until she took her out to get some ice cream.

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During the week, Olumide had made up his mind to speak with Victoria, he felt that no matter what, she should at least know how he felt about her. He had no idea how to go about it but he has a plan. He had invited Victoria to come over to his place to get some document for the office.

Just as Victoria entered, She saw Olumide standing in the middle of the living room, she noticed his dining table lit with dinner candles and food set on the table.
"What's going?" She asked surprised.
Then Olumide showed her the first card  in his hands reading.
"Hello" She read out.
Victoria laughed.
"What is this about?" She asked amazed but Olumide made a signal to wait.
"Ok" Victoria said amused. 
"I have something to tell you" She read as he flip the cards
"I have waited so long to tell you" She read loud. 
"I am a total coward" She read
"and a fool" she read and look up at her. 
"Why" She said looking up to her.
But Olumide flipped the cards
"Because I let you go" She read confused
"I have always loved you Vicky" She read
"But I have been a coward" She read, this time with all seriousness as she watched him flip again.
"I am in love with you Vicky" She read
"What!" Victoria said stunned unable to read further. 
"Right back in school" Olumide voiced out.
"I have always loved you, I wanted tell you but when Albert came along, I couldn't" He said soberly.
"What!" Victoria said again stunned.
"I had to wait and watch everything between you and Albert" He said.
He was silence for few seconds watching the expression on her face.
"How dare you?" Victoria shouted at him.
"I'm sorry, I know he's my best friend but I can't wait any longer" He said.
"No, I don't care about Albert. How dare you have allowed me to go on with someone all these years who has caused me nothing but pain and sorrow" She shouted at him
"I wanted to tell you Vicky but I couldn't" He said
"Yes, typical of you, you never tell me anything" She said in a disappointing tone.
"I was scared you would not accept me, I didn't want you to think that I took you for granted knowing everything between you and Albert. I wanted you to know that I have always loved you right before Albert, even with all you have had to go through. I was scared that you might think I just needed someone to take care of Ayomi, a mother to her and not a wife, you are my best friend" He said looking gloomy.
"I am so so sorry Vicky, I do love you, I love everything about you, I want you to be my wife" He said in a soothing voice.
"I have watched quietly all these years and I can't stand it any longer" He said.
"Are you telling me this because you think Albert might woo me back" She said at him but he was silence.
"What if he wasn't coming back for me, how long would you would haven to tell me" She asked searching his face.
"I do...." He tried to say.
 Then the door bell interrupted them, he went to open the door.
"Albert!" he shouted surprised.
"Hey man!" Albert said excited.
"How...." Olumide tried to say.
"C'mon man, help me with these bags" Albert said pulling the bags to him.
"Oh I'm so glad to see you" He said as he found his way in.
Then, he spotted Victoria who was frozen in shock.
"My God!" Vicky" He said excited going to hug her. He pulled her to tightly to himself while Vicky who was still shock.
"Oh, I have missed you so much. You are here" He said pulling her closer. "I wasn't sure Olumide would get you here for me", he said as he watched her face with so much excitement.
"Thank you man!" he said to Olumide.
Both Olumide and Vicky were still in shock of seeing him, seems only Albert was doing all the taking at once and took no notice of the tension in the room.
"I tried your phone all  through the weekend but nothing, so I thought I might as well email you everything a I wanted and you did it man, I am so lucky to have you as my friend, even for you to have brought her here for me, waiting for me, whoa man, you did good" He said going to hug his friend.

Olumide had left his charger back home when he travelled last weekend so he was unable to receive any calls, although he saw an email message from Albert but he had totally ignored it, he didn't even bother to read its content. Now to think Albert had planned to come today of all days, even to meet Victoria right in his living room infuriated him but he had to control his anger and go along with things. He could sense how angry Victoria was and he dared not look at her face.
"And you made me dinner" Albert's voice brought him back from his thought.
"Thank you honey" He said as he kissed Victoria on her cheek.
Victoria felt anger rising within her and it took all the strength she had to control herself, she felt so disgusted as he touched her. She couldn't believe all that was happening, she tried looking at Olumide but aware that  he's trying to avoid her gaze. She saw how surprised he is at this whole scenario; then she realized she had to get out, now.
"I have to go" she said taking her bag
"Oh sweetheart, I just got in" Albert said holding her hands
"I..." She tried to search for the right words as she felt her blood boiling in angry.
"She's been here a long time" Olumide quickly said. "She's probably tired" he added.
"Yes" Victoria nodded. "I have to go now" She said.
"Alright then" He said feeling disappointed. "I will walk you to your car" He said as he followed behind her.
As they got to her car, he quickly open the car door for her. 
"Are you sure you don't want to stay" He asking smiling. "You can even spend the night here, I'm sure Olumide wouldn't mind" He said in a smirk face.
"No, I won't spend the night here" she blurted out.
"Alright" Albert quickly say.
"I will see you tomorrow then" He said as he watched her switch her engine on. 
Albert was so excited as he ran back inside to Olumide.
"Thank you man, you don't know how much this mean to me, I haven't spoken to her in six months and you were able to get her here for me, she even did cooked, you are the best man" He said slapping him on the back.
"C'mon, let's eat up" He said as he pulled a chair for himself to eat. "C'mon" he said again as Olumide was just standing there.
Olumide felt his plans has been thwarted as he watched in frustration how Albert moved about feeling on top of the world. He listened in frustration as Albert went on about how he planned to get Victoria back into his life and make things right by her, how he had decided to change for the better and have a stable life and family. Olumide felt like slapping him as he heard him speak about change, he knew him too well.  As they were talking, he saw him log into his blackberry chatting all the way, grinning as he went on. Olumide had to excuse himself to his room as he felt disgusted at his friend.
"Alright then, see you tomorrow" Albert said still locked on his typing.
"Hey" Albert said looking up, "Can I borrow your car tomorrow, got some couple of places I have to go" He said.
"Sure" Olumide answered as he left for his room.

Both Olumide and Albert have been friends from childhood and are both opposite of each other, while Olumide has always worked hard while Albert had the easy life, he always got what he wanted with his charm and words, he was the outgoing one, had so many friends, which most are of course ladies, it was difficult to say which one he was dating, he lived a fearless life. In all this, Olumide had remained loyal to his friend, even through his selfish and notorious life, he had always been his sidekick. But now he's torn between his loyalty to his friend and the woman he loves. How would he betray his friend. He remembered as a young boy, how they had both gone for the same thing, when he buys the latest video game, Albert would also go for it, when he chose his courses in school, Albert had insisted to study the same course, it was fun at first but he realized he was living his life through his friend's. He was the one with the brain but Albert was the one with the charm. He remembered back in the United Kingdom, after several months of studying, going to work and working hard, Albert had lived the other life of partying and having fun, he had tried to get Olumide to go out clubbing with him but he had refused on many occasion except for the night he gave in to him. That was the night Albert introduced him to Pat. He had reluctantly went along with all the fun; he was so humiliated when he asked for soda to drink while they were all partying with wines and alcohol, he eventually went along with them and drank every drink they had, he tried to show them he wasn't all that boring and that he could have fun any time and any day, he felt so wild that night as he unleashed this other side, he drank like never before and danced all through the night.

Olumide woke up with a nagging headache the next morning, he had no idea how he got home but was grateful he was in one piece, not until he saw Pat on the other side of his bed naked under his duvet. He shivered in fear, he knew what he had done as he realized he was also naked. He ran into the bathroom to pull himself together and felt so ashamed of himself. Never for once has he found himself haven slept with a total stranger he knew nothing about, not her last name or if Pat was even her real name, he felt so deterred.

After that incident, he moved out of the house he shared with Albert to his own rented apartment. He analyzed and came to a conclusion that his relationship with Albert had never been healthy for him, he had forced him to do things he would never have done, he always sees his reserved nature to be somewhat of boring and unproductive to him. Gradually, he pulled away from Albert and his wayward life, he always give series of excuses each time Albert called to ask him to go out or come over for partying. He became absorbed in his studies. Few months later, he found Pat at his front door, at first he thought Albert  must have sent her probably to woo him out to the club, not until she blurted out that she was pregnant. He had no idea what to do as she became constant in his life, she began to come visiting more often, asking him to take her food shopping, hospital appointment and cloth shopping, until she eventually moved in. That episode changed his entire plans, he had to think about three people, everything was on his shoulder and he was still studying for his masters. Albert had been so furious with him when he learnt Pat was pregnant and to know that he didn't insist on her aborting it, he had argued with him to deny the pregnancy and send her out packing but Olumide had no gut to do such a thing, he had to think on the other side of what if the baby is actually his and true to that, he couldn't deny the fact when pat delivered his baby. She was the most precious thing in his life, he loved her so much and adored her. He had another perceptive of life when she was born, he made up  his mind to pull his affairs together, to be focus and work hard in achieving his goals. 

Life became more difficult for him after Pat took off and left the baby in his care. he had to bathe her, feed her, did everything he could do to keep her safe. He remembered a particular night when his daughter, Ayomikun started crying  uncontrollable in the middle of the night, he did all he could do to make her stop, fed her, changed her, bathe for her, rock her, everything but she went on crying, he even tried backing her but all to no avail. he felt so frustrated and started to cry himself, there was no one he could call for help or advice. Then he had to go knock on his neighbour's door, an elderly woman whom he had seen his grandchildren visit on some occasion. As she opened the door and saw him drenched in tears as well as his baby, she understood what he needed and helped him. From that day, Grandma Vera became his help, she would always help to baby sit Ayomikun, especially when Olumide had to work over night or go to school. Grandma Vera had been God sent to him, she had stood by him through the tedious months and made things easier for him, she had been the one who helped him rededicate his life back to God, not until then did he realized how far from grace he had fallen, he tried to do things his way own but now, he could look up to the author and finisher of his faith. Few months after, he had returned back to Nigeria.

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Victoria had reluctantly gone to work knowing she would have to face Olumide and that thought was unpleasant to her.
She had been alerted by her secretary that he was in but she made no move to go see him, not until she heard a knock at the door and saw him entering her office, she had immediately turned her attention back on her computer, typing some documents. Olumide knew she had deliberately ignored him so he moved forward to stand by her side.
"Vicky, I am so sorry" He started to say. "I had no idea he was coming yesterday, although I saw his email but I ignored it, didn't even try to read it" He said.
"Please Vicky" He said looking at her. "Say something" He said standing there all nervous.
"What do you want me to say?" She asked.
"I don't like it when you are angry" He said back.
"I'm sorry" He added.
"That's the problem Olumide, you are always sorry" She said out in anger.
"You are sorry you never told me how you felt about me all these years, even when you had the chance, you are sorry you allowed your friend used me, lied to me and deceived me all these years, tell me, why are you sorry?" she said in anger.
"Vicky, please, I know I did wrong, I don't know why it took me all these years to say something, trust me, I wanted to but things are very complicated, you know Albert........." he said looking gloomy.
"Yes, Albert, your best friend" She said out.
"Yes Albert" He said aloud getting frustrated by the minute. "He had it all, he had all the charm a woman will want, the look, the attitude" He said frustrated. "Would you have agreed to go out with me if I had asked you back in school, would you have accepted me, what of when I got back from the United Kingdom with a baby, would you have agreed to be my wife if I had asked, will you?" he shouted.
"We will never know Olumide because you never did asked" She shouted back.
"So that is it. Ok, I am asking you now" He said.
"Isn't it rather too late for you" Victoria found herself saying.
"Yes, I guess so" He said dejected as he left her office.

Victoria found her heart pounding, she felt all emotions rushing within her. She knew he was disappointed and then found herself thinking of how frustrated it must have been for him all these years, especially when she goes crying to him about Albert. Every way and every step, Olumide had been with her, he had never for once said anything negative about Albert, he always respected and supported all her decisions. She knew the truth of the matter in her heart even though she had tried to hide it subconsciously. Before Albert ever came into the picture, she had admired Olumide and waited patiently for him to ask her out but he was too shy and friendly. She stood by the ladies rules of never asking a guy out, but was baffled and surprised when Albert, his friend came asking her out and she had said yes purposely to make him jealous. She had always regretted her decision then, she wished she had not accepted Albert's offer, then, probably Olumide would have come to his sense and do the right thing, now they are both paying for their immaturity and childish behavior.

She struggled with the remaining hours of the day at work, she tried to bury herself into work but her mind was all over the place, she felt so distressed and gloomy at the whole situation. She knew Olumide had taken the rest of the day off, obviously not bearing to see her. She felt so depressed, even her best friend whom she always run to is trying to avoiding her. As the day slowly came to an end, she took off to go home and longed for her bed, just lay there and do nothing, the whole situation had affected her so much that she could not even utter any word to God, her heart wanted to pray about all these but her body was to weary to say any prayer.

As she unlock their front door, she heard laugher and chatting in the living room, lo and behold, she found Albert in the sitting with her parents. She felt blood rushing in her, 'not him, not now' she said to herself.
"Hello dear" She heard her mother say winking at her.
"You didn't tell us Albert arrived yesterday" She said smiling at her.
"I.." She wanted to say.
"But I am so glad for both of you" Her mother said grinning.
 Victoria stood there in total dismay.
"Hello Honey" Albert stood up to greet her.
"How was your day?" He asked.
"I have to go freshen up" She found her voice.
"Oh! OK then, will wait here for you" Albert said sitting down.

Her legs were shaking as she tried to raced upstairs but found her feet dragging her back. In the comfort of her own room, she slumped on the bed feeling so confused. Not realizing how long she had been in the room, she saw her mother come in.
"Honey, what's taking so long" Her mother said
"What!" She said almost forgetting she had a guest waiting.
"Albert is waiting, C'mon dear, don't keep the guy waiting" She said leaving her to change.
"I have some food cooking on the gas" She added.

Victoria now sitting up in utter confusion, she knew she couldn't keep on being so nice to him, she was afraid of what she might say to him, then she heard a knock.
"Hello dear.." Albert said knocking, then ushered himself inside.
"Are you OK?" He asked.
But Victoria just stared at him.
"Honey, you haven't said a word to me since yesterday, Is everything alright" He asked but she was still quiet.
"Alright, I know" He said. "I know I have offended you honey and I am sorry, I am sorry for everything I did to you in the past, Please forgive me dear" He said searching her face.
"But I am here to stay now, to make everything right." He said smiling.
"I want you to be my wife Vicky, I want us to spend the rest of ourselves together" He said grining. "I love you honey" He said. "I want to marry you" he added.
Then Vicky busted into an unbelievable laughter almost close to tears.
"Oh dear, What is so funny" Albert managed to ask surprised at her outburst.
But she continued to laughed and excused herself to go to the bathroom but when she got back, her laughter was gone.
"Albert, do you think you can come in here with all your smiles, charm and whatever you've got going on there to sweep on off my feet" She said in anger.
"Mister, those days are long gone when you come back asking me to forgive you and move on" She said.
"But..."Albert wanted to say.
"Albert, I told you months ago that I am no longer interested in you and I made myself clear then and still stand on my decision" She said to him.
"But I am home now, I am doing everything you wanted, a stable relationship, I even went for jobs interview today and started looking for an apartment, even your mum knows all these" He said back.
"Is my mum going to marry you" She said out. " I don't care what you do Albert, everything you have always done and will do are all for your own benefit" She answered back.
"But I am sorry Vicky, please" He said pleading.
"It's rather too late for that Albert, I don't love you, I don't want anything to do with you. I went into this relationship with a negative intention, I continued in fear of not getting something better, I endured all your lies, deceit, cheating and countless of all. I know who I am now, I know my worth and I know what I want" She said.
"Look at you Vicky, you are not getting any younger, I am the best you can get now"He said arrogantly.
Victoria chuckled. "You are the worst I ever had" she shouted back. "Tell me, why did you come back, out of all the numerous ladies you had back there, is there no one good enough for you, answer me" She shouted. "You think because you traveled down here will make me crawl back to you, you disgust me Albert and I am through with you" She shouted at him.
"Fine!" He shouted back, "I don't have to take all these" He said walking out and then turn back at her "I can see that's why you haven't been into any relationship since you left me" He said and slammed the door.
"How dare you" Victoria raged after him and decided not as she opened the door.

She went back and sat for a moment on her bed, she was so angry, wanted to scream or even cry but nothing came out, not until her mother barged in.
"What is wrong with you?" She shouted at her.
"Do you have to chase everyone away?" She continued.
"I have had enough of this stubbornness with you" She continued to scream at her.
"Fine!, you can live your life of solitude but not in my house" She shouted at her until Victoria heard her Father's voice.
"Enough Beatrice, leave the girl alone" Her father shouted.
"Fine, I will, go ahead and pamper her as you always do" She hissed and walked out.

Victoria looked up in tears as she saw her father looking at her.
"Daddy..." She wanted to say
"It's Okay" Her father said sitting at her side.
"I can't marry Albert daddy" She sobbed on his shoulder.
"I can't" She said
"I know, I don't like him either" Her father said.
"You don't" Victoria said bringing her face up
"But why didn't you say anything?" Victoria asked.
"It's all your decision dear and whatever you do, I will stand by you" He said smiling.
"Oh Daddy!" She said in tears. "I am more confused than ever" Victoria said.
"Why" He asked looking at her.
"It's Olumide" She said looking shying at her Dad, "He said he has always loved him all these years but never said anything" She said.
"Hmm, it's about time" Her father said.
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"I have always knew he had something for you but don't know why it took this long to say something" He said.
"Oh Daddy, I am chasing everyone away" Victoria cried
"No, you are not dear, God will bring what is yours to you" He said
"So what have you decided to do?" He asked.
"I don't know" She said  "Dad, can't you just tell me what to do" She asked looking into his face.
"My princess, there are some decision you need to make yourself and this falls under it, you need to ask God for wisdom and guidance" He said.
"But Olumide is Albert's friend, what would people say" She asked.
"My dear, the day you start thinking of what people will say, that is the day you stop growing. I advice you go to God and see what He's saying" He said as he stood up.
"I will pray for God's divine direction for you my dear and don't worry about your mother, she's my beloved wife" He smiled. "I know how to talk to her" He said leaving her alone.

Victoria was left all alone again, she wanted to lay down and continue to ponder on the whole things but realized worrying and thinking does not solve any problem, she decide to go on her knees and speak to her Maker. 
"Father, I acknowledged that I am dependent upon you and your wisdom. I thank you lord that you created me this way so that I can learn to draw near to You each day and receive your abundant supply. I ask You for wisdom Lord and insight for my life. I need you to show me the right path to go and make Your own decision for my life. Help me to know what to do in this situation. Help me not to rely on my own understand and others. Rather, let me judge and decide by what the Holy Spirit shows me. Thank you in advance for giving me all that I need. Amen!" She said still on her knees.
She stayed for a while in total silence as she felt His divine peace come all over her, she still had no idea what to do but she felt His peace within her, she felt assured of His presence and guidance.

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Albert got back home all angry and frustrated. He stomped into the living room cussing and shouting.
"Who does she think she is" he yelled out. 
"What is it" Olumide asked.
"That bitch, she thinks high of herself" he shouted.
"Alright man, I've got a kid sleeping and no cussing in my house" He said back.
"Sorry man" He apolozied.
"Can you believe her, after coming all the way back to Nigeria to beg her, she's still behaving like a nut case, proving all stubborn" He said angrily.
"I have done everything for her, everything" he yelled.
"What have you done" Olumide shouted in anger after having to listen to him
"What have you done for her" he said again.
"What!" Albert said.
"I am sick and tried, so tried of you lamenting of what you have done, you are so pathetic, selfish. You have no intention of making things right by her, you only came back to get her back with you then you travel back" he yelled at him
"What do you mean?" He asked shocked and confused.
"Yes I saw your travel document, just left it lying on the bed in the room, you have a schedule fight for next week. Tell me, what were you planning to tell her after you get her back with you? An emergency you have to attend to back in the state, what? I even doubt that you went for any interviews today" He said.
"What are you doing man, I thought you were suppose to have my back" He shouted back.
"I am tired of having your back, I am tired of being your side kick,I am tired of been used by you, I am tired of you chasing and taking what is mine" He said out frustrated. 
"What!" He said standing there in utter confusion.
"Yes, you had to have her, you knew I had something going on with Victoria, you knew my weaknesses, you knew I was summing up the courage to ask her out back in School, you knew all these, yet you had to get her, You had to take what is mine and I have had to watch you hurt and disappoint her over and over again" He shouted.
"It's not my fault you are always slacking when it comes to women" He said out.
"Slacking, yes, backstabbing, no, You are wicked, I don't know why I stood by you all these years, the moment you got back into the country, you have had numerous calls and chatting with all your girlfriends. Tell me, what happened with Jade, the one you married just to get your papers" He blurted out.
"I don't know what you mean?" He said lying.
"Liar, you think you can hide that from me, I know everything you ever did even when I was gone. You told me it was just an agreement between you two to get your papers and you did paid her off, but you lied, you have been sleeping with her, Jade doesn't see it as a contract, she married you for real, tell me, what happens to her two children, your children.  what were you planning to do, marry Vicky here in Nigeria and keep her here and then have Jade in the United Kingdom, you are sick man" He shouted staring at her. "When will you grow up and be a man and take care of your responsibility, You need to start taking responsibility for your action and stop hurting everyone" he said in so much pain in his tone. 

Then they were both silence staring at each other to what seems like forever, pondering over all he just said.
"So what do you want? " Albert asked in a calm tone. 
"I want you to leave Vicky alone" He said. "I have always loved her and...." He tried to say.
"Has she accepted" Albert asked.
"No, she's angry at me" He said quietly.
"I'm sorry man" Albert said. "I never realized how much I had hurt you, I was just having fun" He said bitterly.
"I'm sorry" He said.
"Yea" Olumide said standing up to leave for his room.
He had no idea what came over him, he had never in his life have to shout at anyone like that before but he was glad he did. He left Albert alone in his thought.

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Days following that argument, Olumide and Albert had gone quietly in and out of the house.Olumide had no idea what to do about Victoria but as days went by, he felt so distressed and lonely, He wanted so much to talk to his friend, even if its to say hello to her but he couldn't. He has not been to the office for days now especially when he had to travel to Port Harcourt for an urgent business meeting. He tried to call her several times but couldn't sum up the courage. He felt so frustrated in his inability to prove himself and felt failing all over again. 

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Albert had resolved to go back to the United Kingdom and make things right for himself, he thought hard those days following their argument and realized how he has hurt those who have loved him unconditionally through all his mischief and deceits. He couldn't even bring himself to talk to Olumide as he felt ashamed of himself so he left a note for him and also left one for Victoria.
As he sat at the Airport waiting for his flight to be called, he saw someone that looked very much like Victoria, so he walked up to her to be sure.
"Vicky" He called out.
"Oh God! What are you doing here, are you stalking me?" She asked irritated.
"Easy" He said quickly. "I am not stalking you, I have a flight to catch" He said.
"Really" She said confused.
"Yes really" He answered. "Look, I left a message for you with Olumide" He said. "I am sorry Vicky, I am so sorry for all I put you through and everything I said" He said. "I am been selfish and wicked, I don't deserve you Vicky" He said looking at her. "I promise I won't disturb you again, you deserve the best" He said.
Victoria lifted her face as she heard those words, she couldn't believe her ears, she was surprised and shocked at the same time but she knew he was saying the truth.
"Where are you going?" He asked as he noticed her passport.
"Me?" she said.
"Yes, you"  he smiled.
"Ghana, I have a job offer there" She said.
"Really" He said surprised.
"Yes" She answered.
"Does Olumide knows about this?" He asked searching her face.
"No" She said quietly.
"Vicky, are you running away" He asked looking at her.
"What do you mean?" She said looking suspiciously at her.
"I know" He said smiling " and I don't think you should run" He added.
Then, Victoria heard her flight announced over the speaker.
"Hmm, you will know something about running away, huh," She said as she pulled her hand luggage.
"By the way Al, you need Jesus" She smiled at him.
"I know" He replied over at her. "I'm trusting to find him" he added.
"God luck" He said to her.
"You too" She shouted back over the crowd.
"Thank you Vic" He added as he watched her leave. Then he heard his flight announcement made so he hurried to join the queue. 

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Olumide got back from his trip and found Albert's letter to him, he felt so much relieved and grateful for his resolution but he knew he had one more thing to do, he hurried to his office and went straight to Victoria's office. He was not about to run away again, he was determined to do the right thing and make her realized how much he loved her. He prayed he was not too late. 
"Sir" He heard her secretary called but he ignored and barged into her office but was empty.
"Where's your boss?" He went back to ask her.
"Sir" She said confused.
"Where is Victoria" He asked annoyed.
"She...." She wanted to say then remembered the letter she asked her to give him
"You haven't been to the office for days now, she asked me to give this to you" she said handing him the letter.
"What!" he said confused taking the letter from her. he tore it open and read the content.
"What!" he said again.
"When was this?" he asked but left her standing not waiting for an answer.
He got into his car and drove to her house, luckily for him, he met her Father driving out.
"Sir" He said running to his car.
"Olumide" Mr Matthews said surprised.
"Sir, where's Vicky" he said breathing heavily.
"Oh boy!" Mr Matthews said switching off his engine.
"I need to teach you some lessons about lateness" He said at him.
"What!" Olumide said confused.
"If you want my daughter, You need to hurry and get her, I don't like all these cat and mouse chase" He said.
"She's gone to Ghana, she went two days ago to start a new job" Mr Matthews said.
At those words, Olumide felt so disappointed and sad.
"What are you waiting here for" Mr Matthews spoke out.
"Sir!" He said 
"Yes, go for her, go home, get your passport and run like never" He said.
"I will text you her address in  few minutes" He added.
Just then, literally, Olumide took to his heels and ran to his car, as he drove, he called his flight agent to get him the earliest ticket to Ghana irrespective of the cost, his heart pounding has he drove.

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Olumide had to wait for almost 15 hours for the next available flight, Mr Matthews was true to his words to text him the address. He had taken a cab from Kotoka International Airport straight to the address he was given. She was still staying at the Holiday Inn not too far from the Airport. He tried to pull himself together as he felt his hands shaking, he had no idea what he would say to her but trust that God would help him out especially to give him the courage, he had specifically prayed about it all through out his flight on the plane.
He paid his far and walked into the lobby going straight for the lift, he had been told what room she was in.

Victoria heard a knock on her door, thinking it was the room service she had ordered for dinner.
"Coming" She said loud as she walked to the door.
"Olumide" She gasped.
"What are you doing here" She asked surprised.
"How did you find me" She asked again.
"Vicky, I am not here to tell you that I am sorry to have kept you waiting all these years and to all that had happened" He said out.
Victoria surprised at his outburst.
"But I have come to tell you that I love you and I will always love you, I love everything about you, I love the way you smile, the way you laugh, I love everything about you honey and I want you to be my wife, my lover, my soul mate, my best friend, my accountant, my business partner, everything you can ever think of" He said smiling. At this time, Victoria was smiling. 
"I don't care where you move to or where you want to live, I will proudly follow you as long as I am with you" He said looking into her eyes in the most passionate way. "I love you Victoria" He said.
Just then, Victoria jumped into his embrace as she hugged him tightly in joy, she felt every barrier and walls between them broken, she felt peace at his words and felt his love.
"I love you too Olumide" She said in his embrace "I love you so much and I love your daughter, I love everything about you and I am in love with you" She said as she looked into his eyes.
"I don't care where we live as long as I am with you" She added.
She suddenly went to her phone to dial a number.
"What are you doing?" Olumide asked amused.
Victoria waved her hands to him " Yes, this is room 201, Please can you book a reservation for two to Nigeria" She said.
"As soon as possible" She said as she put down the phone.
"Are you serious" Olumide said surprised.
"Yes, I am" She said holding unto him.
"What about the job offer" He said.
"What job offer" She answered winking at him.
"I want to live where our families are, I want our children to grow around their grandparents, cousins and aunties" She said smiling.
"Yippee" Olumide said out
Hurray" Victoria responded.
"I love you Victoria" He said lifting her up as he swirled her around with laughter and joy.

Both Olumide and Victoria traveled back to Nigeria the following day and got married  within two months. They both have been living in their quiet home now for fifteen years, surrounded by their children and growing stronger in love and friendship. Albert still remains friends to both couples and he eventually found the Lord, you won't believe if I tell you that he became a radical Evangelist and waxing strong, you never know who the Lord can use, so stop doubting. 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will guide and direct your path. Don't give up on yourself and don't settle for anything because you think the Lord is taking his time and nothing seems right. Don't be pressure into anything you don't have peace with. Go to God, wait in His presence, no matter what you are seeking, be it marriage, job, opportunities, whatever it is, no matter how big or small that decision is, He can direct your path. There's no mountain too tall that our God cannot move, there's no valley too low, He will see you through, there's no problem too big that Jesus cannot solve, ask in faith and he will pull you through. 

The End.

To all my Reader

Thank you all for your patience in reading the concluding part. I do hope you enjoyed it. Please leave your comments and views below, It can encourage someone. God Bless. 



Monday, 16 January 2012

Finding Love.

Sad Lonely Woman


Victoria felt someone tapping her to wake up.
"Victoria" her mother, Beatrice called out. 
"Victoria" She said again.
"Mum" She moaned opening her eyes.
"What is it?" She said rubbing her eyes. "Are you alright?" She asked.
"I want to talk to you" Beatrice said in a serious tone. 
"Talk" Victoria asked confused looking at the wall clock, 2:30 am
"Mum, it's the middle of the night, Is everything OK" She said sitting up.
"Are you fully awake" Her mother asked. 
"Yes" She answered rubbing her eyes. 
"Now, I want to ask you some series of questions and I want you to be totally honest with me, ok" She said looking with a stern serious face.
"I'm listening" Victoria said.
"Is there anything you are keeping away from me, anything at all that I should know about?" She asked..
"What! Victoria said. "What do you mean?" She asked puzzled.
"Victoria, I am your mother, I love you and care about you. See, my heart is heavy because of you, I can't sleep and I am not happy, all these are because of you" She said looking at her face feeling stricken.
"You are not getting any younger, in few months now, you will be clocking 36 years old, you have everything any young woman need in life, a good job, you are a beautiful and remarkable young woman, you have a good attitude every man would want in a wife, your beauty is flawless and you have shaped your life with the word of God and in the way of the Lord." She paused for a while seeing the hurt on her daughters face as she spoke those words. She knew her words were piercing through her, although her intentions were not to make her feel bad about her situation but she had to speak her heart to her.
"I would never do anything to hurt your feeling my dear, everything I am saying is for your own good". She said in love.
 "Your immediate younger sister is married already with two kids, let's say for the sake of arguments that  she got married whilst still in the University at a very young age but look at Rachael, your little sister, she also got married last year and you my daughter, you don't have any man in the picture, what is happening?". Her mother said with a lump of tears.
"Please tell me?" She said again.
"Mum" Victoria started to say then paused to stare at her mother. She felt her pain but she had no idea what to say or how to start. 
"Mum, please don't cry, please" She said to her mother.
"You are the reason for my tears, you are Victoria" She said in tears. "I need you to tell me the truth"
"There's nothing wrong with me Mum but I promise you, things will change for me, everything would be fine" Victoria said trying to comfort her mother.
"I know everything would be fine" Her Mum said looking up at her. "I know it" She said again. "See, Albert called me today" Beatrice said searching her daughters face.
"What! Why?" She asked in an angry voice.
"He said he was coming home in few days time, he's coming back to you" She said. "He promised to make things right and start the necessary arrangement for both of you" She said.
"Mum..." Victoria tied to say.
"No, wait my dear, things would be fine. This is all you have always wanted, for Him to come back home, back to settle in Nigeria and that's what he's doing. He already set up some interview for jobs here in Lagos" She said looking at how irritated her daughter was.
"Mum, you know there's nothing more between myself and Albert" Victoria said fuming. "I don't have anything with him and it's a waste of time if he is coming home for me" She said infuriated. 
"But things would be OK now" Beatrice said pleading.
"No! She shouted in angry, "He cheated on me mum, series of affairs, lying, deception, numerous of call from his so called friends and fiancée to tell me to stay away" She said angrily.
"My dear, I know and he explained his side to me. Sweetheart, Albert is a good man and his intentions towards you are good. You have to forgive him, let's go of the past for a better future together" She said to her. "Every relationship has its own ups and downs and we must be willing to forgive the other party"
"There's no future between us Mum, not now, not ever" She said bluntly. "Please Mum, forget about Albert and myself, please" She begged. "God will bring my own husband soon, only be patient" She said.
Furious and angry, she stood up from the bed and look at her daughter with the most disgusting look.
"Patient! what patient, can't you see it, can't you hear what others are saying about you, me. I don't care what you do Victoria, reconcile with him" She raged at her daughter, walked out and slammed the door.

Victoria was shock at her mother's behaviour, She felt her heart jumped as she slammed the door.
"Oh God! she said as she felt the tears rolling.
She wanted to shout or even scream but her mouth were shut as she flooded in tears. She wanted to ask God to speak now or she would walk out but her mouth couldn't utter those words. She expected her mother of all people to understand her plight. She had made up her mind long ago never to have anything to do with Albert again. It did took her several months to get over the heart break and pain of the break up, all she wants now is to move on with her life and no mention of his name to her. 

They dated for almost eight years; two years into their relationship, he had traveled to the United Kingdom to study for his masters. After a while, Albert stopped calling, changed his number and ceased every communication to him. Victoria was so scared during these times has she had no means of contacting him, his whole family also reside in the United Kingdom, after few months, he suddenly showed up, apologized for his behaviour and had no solid excuse. After so much pleading, they continued their relationship but still had been one argument to  another, fights and silent treatments. He came home home once or twice in a year and during these time, he fought with Victoria who had refused to sleep with him and this enraged him the more. He argued that he loved her and she was already his wife in his own eyes; he saw no reason why she wouldn't sleep with him if indeed she loves him.

After so much fight and pressure, during his last visit home, Victoria gave in to him, to satisfy his urges and express her love for him. After these incident, they still continued their series of fight and argument,one thing or the other. After almost six years of this struggle and unhealthy relationship, she came to an absolute resolution to leave the relationship but part of her still held unto him; he flew back home just to beg her and promised to make things right by her. But the last straw came when she began to receive series of emails and text message from a lady who claimed to be Albert's fiancée and wanted her to stay away from her man, she confronted Albert who lied about it but later came clean that she was an ex girlfriend and the incident happened when both of them were not in terms. Countless of incidents like gave her no choice but to end the relationship, she called off every ties between them, changed her phone numbers and any way he could contact her. These was six months ago, she realized the relationship was not healthy and she had to sort out her life and stop living in the illusion of them getting married.

This decision has proven difficult for her but this time, she had the strength of God to help her through, she had grounded herself in the word of God and believes with all of her heart that the plans of God for her life are not evil or unhealthy relationship but a good future.  Victoria drifted off into sleep with these thought. 
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Victoria left home very early in the morning to avoid another episode with her Mum, especially now that her father who had always been a shoulder to cry on had traveled on a business trip. She tried to take her mind off the whole scene by loading her brain with so much work at the office since her confident and friend, Olumide has not been to work all day. it's so funny to have a guy as your best friend but her relationship with Olumide has grew stronger all the years, they both have been through all the battles of life, both fought hard to be where they are today. Back in the University, Olumide had been the one who introduced her to Albert, his friend and he has been her confider ever since then; each time she has an episode of quarrel and fight with Albert, he was the one she always run crying too. Both Albert and Olumide had both traveled together for their masters study in the United kingdom, although Albert had settles there, never to make Nigeria his home again but Olumide had returned three years later with a 8 months old baby to account for.

She had marveled at this discovery when he told her all that happened back in the United kingdom; He said that he had a fling with a lady for one night and few months later, she came telling him she was pregnant for him, all his effort to avoid her was fruitless, eventually she moved in with him till she delivered his baby and there was no doubt that child was his as she is a total replica of him, although Victoria tells him she is more beautiful. Few weeks after the lady delivered his baby, she one day left the house to go buy some baby food and never returned, only for him to find a note she had left saying she wanted a life free of any stress of a child and she was sorry to leave their baby in his care but trust that he would take care of her. That was a shock to his life, after so much effort to care for the baby on his own, also joggling with work, he decided to come back home and take over his father's business. This was four years ago and since then, he had remain strong and a good father to Ayomikun. Olumide had worked hard to bring his father's business to a high standard which has now become one of the best food organization in the state, he later begged Victoria to come and head his account department. Since then, they had both work hard in building his company and remained best of friends.

Reluctantly, Victoria decided to go for lunch with or without Olumide, as she slowly ate her chicken pie, she ponder on the fight she had with her mother, she wondered if she should forgive Albert, make up and probably marry him so she could leave this life of spinsterhood. All her friends are reminder of her solitary not to talk of her sisters, cousins and neighbors who she grew up with. One of the things she regretted in her relationship with Albert was the fact that she had slept with him, she had always said to herself  and held unto to was the fact that, she would never sleep with any one who is not her husband but since she had given in to Albert years ago, she had unconsciously held unto him in spite of all his behaviour towards her; but after a while when she had renewed her relationship with the Lord, she understood that although she could not get her virginity back again, she was renewed by the blood of Jesus. She had prayed to broke any yoke or covenant keeping her with Albert; that was the starting point of her deliverance from him and since that day, she had held unto the Lord for direction for her life. She knew Gods plan was not Albert for her life, even though her body sometimes wants him to be, her heart was far away from hat notion. She had to fight herself constantly from the urge of forgiving him to come back but six month down the line, she felt she was totally free from him but now that he's coming back home and her own mother is totally in support of it brought the fear of uncertainty to her.

"There you are" Victoria heard Olumide's voice behind her.
"Oh! Where have you been boss?" she asked smiling.
"Well, taking care of business" He said sitting down.
"What happened?" She asked.
"Ayomikun had a bit of fever yesterday so I took her to the clinic this morning" He said
"Oh, is she feeling better now" She asked concerned.
"Yes, was given some medication so I have asked Blessing to call me if there's any change" He answered.
"I pray she feel much better cos I have lots planned for her sleep over this weekend" She said.
"I'm sure she will, she wouldn't miss any chance of a sleep over" He said smiling.
"So what have I missed" He asked.
"Well, nothing much except my mum woke me up around 2:30 am this morning to talk about Albert" She said looking gloomy.
"Hmm" He said
"She begged or rather insist that I make up with Albert has he is coming back home for me" She said irritated.
"Oh" Olumide said.
"What do you mean oh" She asked looking suspiciously at him.
"Well..." He tried to say
"Well what? What do you know?" She asked.
"Albert called to tell me he would be coming home and asked if he could stay at my place" he answered.
"What! When? She said angry.
"Last week" He said under his breath.
"And you didn't tell me" She said furious.
"I couldn't, I'm sorry" He said
"I thought you had my back" She said back
"I'm sorry Vicky" he said
"You never tell me things about Him" She said angrily
"I'm sorry" he replied again watching her go on and on in anger
"That was how you never told me anything he does when you were both in the United kingdom" She said in anger
"I'm sorry again and again about that" He replied in a calm tone.
"You never tell me about the way he lived his life, his cheating and lies" She said again.
"I'm sorry Vicky" He said smiling at her as he watched her in frustration.
"Why are you smiling" She asked
"You know I always smile when you are angry" He said still smiling.
"But I really need to you tell me things you know, I don't want to be surprise by my mother again" She said in a much calm voice.
"You know I have my reservation towards Albert, I don't want to come in between you two" He said
"Reservation! You introduced us" She said back
"Yes and that was a mistake I haven't forgiven myself of" He answered.
"It wasn't your fault" Victoria said. "You had a good intention then and you didn't know what he was going to do" She said back.
"Yea..., so what are you going to do now?" Olumide asked.
"Nothing, You know very much I am through with Albert, it's my mum I am bothered about" She said.
"Okay, God will give you the wisdom to deal with it" He said taking some of her chips on the table.
"So, what did you tell him?" She asked curious.
"Who?" He asked
"Albert, about your place" She said
"I said OK" he answered lowering his head
"You did what?" She snapped.
"I couldn't say no, I had no excuse" He said
"So much for having my back" She said.
"I'm sorry Vicky" he said.
"OK, I am NOW tried of hearing I'm sorry, my lunch is over" She said standing up
"But I just got here" Olumide said after her.
"You are the boss, you can come into your office any time you life" She replied walking away while Olumide stood up to run after her.

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Victoria had deliberately taken much work at the office to get home late. she knows her mother has a strong routine of going to bed before 9:00 so getting  home late was good for her.
As she quietly tiptoed into the sitting room, she felt a presence there.
"I can see you took it pretty hard on yourself" She heard her father voice in the dark.
Switching on the light.
"Oh Dad" She said gong to hug him
"I'm so glad to see you, how was your trip?" She asked.
"Fine" he answered
"So, you have taken to the night" He asked smiling.
"I'm sorry Dad, just had loads of paper work to do at the office" She said
"Sweetheart, don't be offended with you mother" He said raising an eyebrow.
"Oh, you know" She said sitting down
"Yes, she told me about it and I have asked her to leave you alone. She can't force you into a relationship with someone you have no interest in" He said.
"I know Mum is concern but please, tell her to be patient and to keep praying for me" She said pleading.
"I have told her many times and you have to be patient with whatever she does, ok" He said.
"Okay Dad" She said.
"I'm sure you are tired, go to bed, we will talk more tomorrow dear" He said.
"Thanks Dad, good night" She said standing up
"Good night" He answered.

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Almost a week later, things have returned to normal in the house, Beatrice had lighten up with her daughter, unusual happiness she displayed, although Victoria tried to embraced this behaviour but she knows her mother to be rather mischievous sometimes. Today being a Saturday was full of errands, she had received a text message from her pastor's wife to come see her, after then, she had to pick up Ayomikun for another sleep over. Most often when Olumide had to travel for business purposes, she had agreed to babysit Ayomikun even though he had a nanny to look after her but he felt more secure with her staying with Victoria during these time and Victoria had no objection to that, infact she has grown to love her, even have a smaller bed and set of clothing in her house for her each time she comes to stay.

As she switched off her car engine, she took a moment to gather her things before getting out to meet her pastor's wife.
"Hello Ma" She greeted seeing her relaxing in the garden.
"Victoria, hello dear, how nice to have come in such a short notice" Stella said.
"No problem ma, how are the family?" Victoria asked
"They are doing great, please sit down" She said.
"Thank you ma" She replied.
"Alright dear, I think I should go straight to why I called you; I like to talk to you heart to heart, women to women" She said
"Ok" Victoria curious..
"Your mother asked me to speak to you and I'm sure you know why" She said
Victoria realizing what the talk would be about.
"Please my dear, I don't know what the side of your story is regarding this issue but I do know that your mother is troubled, she's very sad" She said.
"I know Ma" Victoria said quietly.
"Ma, I am not happy about everything going on in my life now but I am certain of one things, that the plans of God for my life are good and He will not put me to shame" She said. "My mother should not try to force someone on me, I know what I want, even though it's taking so long to achieve but it will all come true" She said
"Alright" Stella said. "What about Albert?" She asked.
"Oh Albert. We dated for a very long time, he promised marriage. We did have our issues, so much of it but he has cheated on me countless of time, deceived and lied to me. See ma, I have to move on, I can't wait for him any longer, you always teach us that a broken relationship is better than a broken marriage. A kind of Man like Albert that has taken up to drinking, fornicating and all sort, I can't have him as my husband, no Ma" She said firmly.
"I do understand you dear" Stella said  "So is there anyone now"
"Not now ma but wait and see what the Lord will do" She said firmly.  .
"Alright dear, but please, whatsoever you do, do seek the face of God. I can understand your mother's urgency and frustration but don't be discourage, hold unto what you know and don't compromise your faith for anything" She said with all seriousness at her.
"I have known you for quite some years now, you are a strong young lady, diligent, hard-working, a woman of prayer and a virtuous one, don't compromise come what may, OK" She said smiling at her.
"Thank you Ma, I am so glad you understand" She said
"My dear, I do understand more that you can imagine, I was once where you are now, I was almost thirty six years of age and had not husband, my boyfriend was not serious about marriage; after so some much begging and talks, he was still not ready. I loved him so much, would do anything, I mean anything to keep him; then,I decided to get pregnant for him to speed things faster; I wasn't born again then, just a church goer but desperate, all my friends and their younger sisters were getting married, I was tired of being a bridesmaid or even going to weddings. Then I broke the news to my boyfriend that I was pregnant, oh!, he was mad, he was so angry, he said I did it deliberately to tied him into this relationship,after so much begging and tears; he just took off one day and left the state. That was how I became a single mother, things were very difficult, everyone blamed me, the society put a stigma on me, some even said I was one of those women who were not submissive to their husband, who would rather be career working woman than a wife under a man's authority. At some point, I felt hatred toward my own child, an emotion no mother should ever feel  but I was angry, confused and battered.

Then Few months later, I met with the Lord; that changed everything, my worth, my self esteem. I was redeemed by the Lord, I wasn't bothered by any condemnation or accusation from people, I knew who I was now; I cherished my baby and fell in love with him, he was a gift from the Lord. I came to a realization of who I was in Christ not in the eyes of the world. God made everything new for me, all things became beautiful even through my trials and storms, I had peace, I was confident in the Lord. I embraced this new life with so much joy. Then, two years later, I found the love of my life, a man after God's own heart and the rest you know" She finished her story smiling in joy.
"Whoa ma, I never knew all these about you, you are a strong woman" Victoria said surprised at all she just heard. .
"The Lord was there with me, he gave me strength when I needed it" Stella answered.
"So what happened with your boyfriend, did he ever come back for his child" Victoria asked wondering.
"My dear, Our God is good" She said smiling. "Yes he did came back, He is my husband now, your pastor" She said.
Victoria gasped.
"What!" She said surprised.
"Yes, your pastor was the same man, He came back to me a changed man, while he was cruising around the world, he met with the Lord, He was renewed by the Lord, he made all things new. He came back begging me and when he did, I could see the Lord in Him" She said smiling while Victoria was still in shock.
"My dear, God works in mysterious way, He is always faithful to His own. Now listen dear, I am not saying you should go ahead with Albert, I am asking you to stay in the presence of God to hear from him, He will direct you in the right path" She said. "Please and please I will say again, stay in his presence, only Him can direct you. I will put you in my prayers too, OK" She said to her
"Thank you ma" She said.
"Now, I pray that the peace of God that surpasses all understanding guide and guard your heart in Jesus name" Stella prayed.
"Amen" Victoria replied.
"It is well" Stella said.
"Thank you ma" Victoria said standing up. "I appreciate this ma" She said,
"It's alright dear".

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As Victoria drove over to pick up Ayomikun, she couldn't but think about her conversation with her pastor's wife. She had always admired the love and commitment between the pastor and his wife. She realized that every one has their own past and what they do with it is what matters. She was glad she spoke with her but still felt confused on some part; could she still hope that something new could happen between herself and Albert. What happens if he comes back changed like the pastor, renewed or saved, would that change her feelings towards him, could that make her forgive him, love and both get married. What if he meant what he told her mother, coming back to settle in Nigeria and making arrangement to marry her, after all, that was all she had always wanted from him. At this point, she felt more and more confused as she thought about her own situation. The sound of her phone brought her back from her thought.

"Hey" She said to Olumide.
"Where are you?" She heard his voice.
"Hold on, let me wear my ear piece" She said.
"Ok, are you there?" She asked.
"Yes" Olumide answered.
"Where are you?" He asked again."Ayomi has packed all her bags since I told her you were coming" He said laughing.
"Oh, I'm on my way" She answered laughing. "Tell her I would be there soon" She said.
"Alright but I'm on my way to the airport now, my flight is in one hour" He said.
"Alright, call me when you get to Port Harcourt" she said to him.
"You know I will" Olumide said hanging up.

Now, here is the part of the story that gets interesting. Olumide meant it then when he told Victoria he did regretted ever introducing Albert to her. Since they were both friends back in the University, He had tried to put his feelings towards her quiet for fear of destroying the relationship they had together and fear of Victoria rejecting him so when Albert showed interest and begged him to introduced Victoria to him, he refused at first but after several pressure from Albert, he succeeded in forcing himself into her life. He had always regretted that in his life, he envied their relationship right from the start and couldn't do anything about it. It was so difficult for him especially when they both traveled for their masters and he witnessed how Albert had flirt and slept with so many women, his lies, cheating and deceit but he couldn't bring himself to tell Victoria. He had tried to forget his feelings for her and move on with his life; but when he came back with his 8months old baby, Victoria had been the one who stood by him all through the way.

How he loves her but could not bring himself to tell her. He felt so heart broken and angry each time Victoria comes crying to him about Albert but he had always restrain himself from talking. Almost five good years, they had walked in hand together in his company and in their lives, he has always pretended to be in a on and off dates but none of them meant anything to him. Six months ago when Victoria had announced that she had broken up with Albert for good, he had secretly celebrated but couldn't bring himself to say anything to her, he had waited all these months to build up his courage but had no idea how to start. How would he profess love to His best friend and his friend's ex girlfriend who he is still working his way up to get back? He felt perplexed.

To be continued.

To my Readers
I know you don't like the suspense, sorry about that, but I promise you it gets more interesting but in the mean time, I would love your comments on this story, tell me what you think.





Friday, 13 January 2012

Peace Be Still!

Restless Water

"I've had enough of all this" Meg screamed in frustration to her friend.
"I don't know what else to do again, I have been patient through all temptations and persecution but still, they would never leave me alone" She said feeling so gloomy.
"They all question my decisions, they don't understand why I have taken these steps even my parents have asked me to come out of it. I have tried to explain to them countless of times that I am only following the Lord's instruction but they never understand" She cried out.
"It's okay Meg" Lizzy tried to console her. "Everything would be fine" She said.
"I feel like giving up and giving in to them. Even the road the Lord has asked me to take does not seems easy, I have come across storms, earthquake and all sort of things. Every road brings new challenges and He still asked me to take it, I clearly heard His instruction, why?" She asked frustrated.
"Why is it that even when you clearly hear the Lord's instruction for your life, when he ask you to take certain decision, it doesn't come easy, you find so much accusation, disapproval, discouragement all through the way?" Meg said.

Lizzy look at her friend with the most loving face, felt her pain and frustration.
"Alright dear" She said. "Sit, let me share something with you" opening her bible.
"Remember in the Book of Mark 4 from verse 35. Jesus told His disciples to let them go to the other side of the river and he went to sit in one of the boat at the sea side amongst other boats. Now, note first that Jesus gave the instruction for them to go over and he even chose the boat to travel in but after being on the boat, there was a great storm which scared all those aboard and imagine, Jesus was sleeping in the back, undisturbed by the wave or screaming of His disciples. Then, when he was awoken, He commanded the waves to be quiet and the sea to be still".

"Yes, I know the story" Meg said wondering where she was going with it.

"What I am saying is this" Lizzy continued. "Even though he took them on the sea, they still had to face a stormy sea. Sometimes when the Lord tells us to do something does not mean things would be so smooth, we still have to face challenges on the way, discouragement sometimes, disapproval and accusation even from those we love and respect their opinions in our life. This does not mean that the Lord is not with us on that journey even though it may seems as if He is sleeping but He is there, He knows our pain, our trial, our confrontation, he knows everything but the good news is that He is going to pull us through. He will never leave or forsake you. He didn't take you to the sea to make you drown, no!. Everything He does, he does for your own good". She paused for a moment watching the expression on her friend's face who was pondering on all those words.

"Sweetheart, He didn't take you on this journey just to leave you to walk alone, he walks with you all through the way" Lizzy said. "Now, listen carefully, what I want you to do now is stand up and command every waves and Sea to be still". She said in a commanding voice. "Speak the peace of God into your life so in spite of every accusation and challenges, you still have your peace". She said as she saw her face in joy. 

My friends, are you facing any challenge in your decision to follow the Lord's instruction; the fact that there are troubles everywhere does not mean that God is not there with you, it doesn't mean that he's unconcern about our challenges or trouble. He will not leave you or forsake you. God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble. Therefore, we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountain fall into the heart of the sea, though its water roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. The Lord Almighty is with us, the God of Jacob is our fortress. Come and see the works of the Lord, the desolations he has brought in the earth. He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the shields with fire. Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted amongst the nations, I will be exalted in the earth. The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.

Rejoice and be glad for He is here with you, He is holding your hand all through the way and His joy, peace and victory is certain in your life. Now, take time now to speak His peace in to your life. Peace be Still!

Stay blessed.

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