Giving up

Everyday I wake up, I think of giving up. When life challenges pressed you so down, so down you forget where you are coming from. I say to myself, 'I can't hold on any longer, I am so weak'.
But I hear His voice say, ' My child, stay on the course, its won't be long. My strength is made perfect in your weakness'.

The fear of running and falling, fear of dreaming and not accomplishing, the fear of crying and not been heard. Then I heard His voice saying, 'Even the young grow weary but those who wait upon the Lord, He shall renew their strength. Fear not, for I am with you, when you pass through waters, it shall not overcome you, when you pass through fire, the fire will not burn you. I will walk with you through all the way'.

Have you been crying for breakthrough and it seems you are not been heard? Have you done all it seems you can do and still no result? Listen, God never fails, he hears all the cries, even the ones in the dark, the silent ones, the whispers, the groaning, the pains, the sufferings, he hears them all. He will not put you to shame, His words concerning your life are yea and amen. It wont be long my. You are going to pull through, your inheritance is not lost, your promotion is not denied, your breakthrough is not withheld, your worth is not less, your family is not forgotten and you are not forsaken.

Hold fast to the faith you know, don't give up yet, the words he has spoken in your life will not return to him void but will accomplish the purpose it was sent. Oh my! He loves you so so much, you are very important to him. People may have looked down on you but hes looking at the greatness in you, he took his time in creating you and made ALL things beautiful. See the God in you my friends!

Then I said to him, Lord, am giving it up to you.

Stay blessed

Please Don't Condemn me

Please don't condemn me. I am not perfect, I make mistakes, I fall down sometimes but I am trying. I am trying to put the past behind me, I am holding unto the cross, His grace and mercy I don't deserve but he gave it to me still. I have fallen. I have failed him but He remains faithful. He said, ' My Child, I won't give up on you'.

At some point when I was in the pit, I kept trying to climb up but my sins held me down, those things that easily beset me weigh over me, I see people looking down in disgust at me, asking how long it would take me to raise up and then, I lost hope of getting up.I was battered with sins, guilt, hurt and pain all over me.

Then, I looked up  and saw the Lord who has been stretching his hands all along to me and I asked him, ''Lord, why are wasting time on me? I'm never going to meet your expectation, see how deep I have fallen, have done things I am ashamed of''.

Then, He looked at me with the most beautiful face and said, ''Child, I'm never going to let go of you, my hands would remain stretch as long as you want it. You are my most wonderful creature and I won't let you go. I will cleanse you, I will wash you and clean you. I will make you whole, your sins I will remember no more, your shame I will take away. I will dress you up with my glory and establish your feet. I love you child''.

Then I looked up in tears, with all the strength I had in me, I stretched my hands so high towards him and he lifted him up, He took me into his arms not bothered by how flirty I was, he dried my face from the flowing tears, he washed me in the blood of His Son, Jesus Christ, clothed me with mercy, cleansed me with compassion, fed me with forgiveness, restored me with grace, crowned me with glory and comfort me.

Then I asked him, ''what manner of God are you?

In His mighty soothing voice, he answered, 'I am that I am, The crown of Glory, the Diadem of Beauty, the Great High Priest, the Merciful God, the defender of the helpless, the Advocate, the Almighty, Ancient of Days, Anointed One, Author of Life, My names are endless but right now, I AM YOUR FATHER.....

Stay blessed

For Better, For Best. Part 2

Kathleen decided to go see Matt after waiting the whole of yesterday not hearing from him.

Pulling her car to a stop in front of his house, she decided to give him a call on his phone, something she should have done before going over.

Hello, she heard Matt voice.

Hey, hi, she said. Are you OK? she asked.

Yes, he answered, am sorry, should have called you, couldn't make it home yesterday.

Oh really, she said. So when are you coming? she asked

Maybe this weekend, he answered. Oh, can you hang on a minute please?

Just as Kath was ready to turn her car around, she saw his front door opening and a lady coming out, followed by Matt. He walked her to her car and kissed her goodbye.

Hello, are you there, she heard him saying, walking back into the house.

But Kath hung up the phone. She was shocked and confused, she watched has the lady drove off, without thinking of her next action, she came off her car and walked to his house.She pressed the bell. Matt opened.

Hey honey, he said smiling. I was just coming over to surprise you.

Really, she asked with rage.

Ye.. yes, he stammered

I don't deserve this, she said to him. Why would you do this to me? She cried out.

What do you mean, he answered back, I don't understand what you are saying, he said.

I saw you walked her out, kissed her, even heard you say, you weren't back home, do you think am that stupid? She shouted.

Matt was silence.

You know, I kind of saw this coming, but I kept telling myself, I was being paranold but now, its much painful that I had thought. She looked at him with so much disgust and walked out. She heard him calling her to wait but she knew there wasnt any place for her there.

She cried all the way home feeling so much pain. After the sacrifices and handwork you put into a relationship to work and just then, bang!, they throw it all in your face

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Marion got back home from work exhausted. Working as a Nurse is a job she loves to do but at this time of her life, it become has so stressful for her, the rounds she does on her patients, emergencies, the whole running around is beginning to tell on her. She called out for Kath but no answer so she walked up to her room and found her sleeping. She returned back to her room, as she was changing to her night wear, she heard the front door opened.

Dave came into the room.

Hello honey, he said

Hello, she replied, how was your trip?

Alright, he answered. How are you? he asked

Good. do you want me to serve your dinner. she asked

Thanks am OK, he answered.

The whole formality between them was killing her inside, why couldn't he just hug and kiss her like he does, has she now become so invisible to him, she wondered to herself. she knew she couldn't take any more of this. The silent treatment was become unbearable for her.

I'm tired Dave, she cried out

What!, he asked, confused.

I said I'm tried, I am tried of the way you are treating me, am tried of the silence between us , pretending all is well. 

Tell me,  what have I done to deserve this treatment from you? she asked

I really don't understand what you are getting at Marion, he defended himself.

Really? she asked. She took the letter from her table and gave it to him.

Tell me, why on earth would you be staying in an hotel when you have a home to come to, she asked watching him look at the bank statement.

I am very confused right now, she said. Are you cheating on me? she asked me looking straight into his eyes.

Looking up at her, I am not cheating on you, why would you think of such a thing. I would never cheat on you and you know that, he answered back.

I am not sure of what I know about you these days, she answered back to him, the late nights, business trip, your new found career, you not talking to me.

 When last have you touched me, or even to kiss me. For Christ sake, I am pregnant and you have not for once asked me how I am doing or how my appointment went or how the baby is doing. 

But no, you decided to go on with another woman. she shouted at him

I am not going on with any woman, he shouted back at her

Don't you dare shout at me, don't you dare, she shouted back, I have had enough of all these.

Then he went silence.

OK, I have not been totally honest with you, I just had to stay away for sometime, I needed to think, needed space for me, he stopped to look at her face.

So those night I said I was going on business trip out of the city, I was actually was in town, I just booked a room for myself to be alone in. The thought of another baby scares me, at 58 years old, look at me, I am not 

ready to be a father again, the sleepless night, the whole stuff, he said.

You know, lets say for a  minute I believe what you just said, this actually hurt than you cheating. you are telling me the reason why you stayed away from me is because I am pregnant with YOUR baby, because your are old and you needed time alone. Honestly? she asked.

But he was silence

I hate you so much now, you are so pathetic and selfish, you think I plan this, life does not always go as we plan but when things changes, aren't we suppose to accept it? I don't know why this happen but I am damn grateful to God for this gift. I am also sacred too, considering what the doctors been saying about my blood pressure, which by the way you don't care to know but I trust God to preserve me. But since you can't bear to be with me, I will make it easier for you, she said standing up to leave the room.

Marion, please, he said. It hasn't come to this, he said holding her hands.

Please, let me go now, she said in tears.

Marion went to the guest room to sleep. The last thing she want to do is to talk with him, she felt so much hatred towards him now. In all the misery and tears, she fell into sleep.

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The sharp pain from her stomach woke Marion up.

Oh God, she screamed. She was so weaken by the pain that she couldn't stand from the bed

Kath heard her mum scream and ran towards the room.

Mum, whats wrong, she went to her

I think am in Labour, she said groaning in pains

Are you sure, she asked, but you re not due yet, she said

I know but I need to get to the hosiptal now, she cried out. where is your Dad? she asked 

He left early, said he had an appointment, she said.

Kathleen immediately called the hospital and within 20 mintues, they were at their place, she helped her mum pack her bags and tried calling her Dad but no answer so she left several messages for him.

The drive to the hosiptal was not that long, as they were received by doctors waiting at the entrance. Marion was immediately wheeled to the theatre, she was told they had to operate on her as she was in pre-mature labour.

After what looks like forever, Dave found his way to the labour suite and found Kath sitting down.

Oh Dad, she cried out.

What happened honey, he asked

Shes in theatre, they said they had to operate on her as she went to pre mature labour, she said with fear all over her.

I'm really scared dad, she cried.

Dave taking his daughters in to his arms

Oh God, what have I done, he said to himself. This is all my fault, I should have be there for her, I should have, he kept saying. Oh God, please help her please, I am so sorry for the way I have acted, for being selfish, I love my wife and want her to be ok and I love my baby too, please Lord, help us.

She doesnt deserve the way I have treated her. he said to Kath

You know Dad, I use to envy you and Mum but alot has changed about you.

I know Honey and am sorry, things shouldn't have gotten this far between us. Sometimes what you want isn't what you get, but in the end what you get is so much better than what you wanted. I was been selfish but I know better now.  I just hope its not too late.

Yes, I know. I thought Matt was my life, that I couldn't live without him, it took me seeing him cheat to realise I am much better with out him but you and Mum, you have the best of each other and I wouldnt trade that for anything or any one, she said looking at her dad.

I'm sorry , I to hear about Matt. I was totally selfish. We are told that people stay in love because of chemistry, or because they remain intrigued with each other, because of kindness and luck but it has got to be forgiveness and gratefulness, he said.

Every man needs to appreciate their woman they have and work together in making the best of each other.

Your mum is a great woman, I pray I have an opportunity to tell her everyday of my life of how much I love her and would spend the rest of my life with her, For better, for worse.

After few hours, The Doctor came to announce the arrival of their new bouncing baby boy, although premature but healthy, also Marion who was doing well. As She was been wheeled back to the recovery room, Dave went to hold her hands.

Oh honey, I am so so sorry. I am sorry for putting you through all this. I am sorry honey and I love you. I know I have put you through so much pain but please forgive me my love. I was selfish and thought only about myself and forgot things that really matters. I feel ashamed for what I have done, I dont have any excuses. I did what i did and I take full responsibility. I am so sorry honey, he begged

You really did hurt me, Marion said softly.

I know honey and it would never happen again. I love you and my baby. You, Kathleen and my son are the most important thing in my life and I would never trade it for anything or lose focus of what I have. You are my one and only, my one true love, my strength, my sunshine, my treasure. I love you honey for better, for worse, he said.

Its been a while I heard you say all these and I kind of miss it, she said weakly. I love you too honey, for better, for best, Marion said smiling with so much relief in her.

Dave gently hugged his wife while Kathleen watched with tears, thanking God for the restoration. She had alot to be grateful for. As for Matt, she had to let go believing God for the best for her.Baby Dave was OK and the whole family enjoying their new addition to the family.

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There is no love without forgiveness. and there is no forgiveness without love, To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness. For Better, For Best.

The End

For Better, For Best. Part 1

After tossing in bed for what seems like hours, Kathleen eventually switched on her bed stand light.

Seeing it was 3:30am; she sigh.
Common', she said to herself, I really need to sleep, she murmured.

The excitement of seeing Matt after six months away in Uni had kept her awake all through the night. Matt went away to Liverpool to study while she decided to stay back in her home town, Colchester to continue her studies but surely the long distance relationship has proven to test them both. But putting all the fight and argument aside, she was excited to have him to herself for the whole summer break.
The sound of the fire alarm brought her back from her thought.

What!, standing up from her bed, she opened the door and walked to the kitchen, there she found her Mum trying to put off the alarm.
Mum, she called out, its 3:30 in the morning, what are you doing, she asked, helping her to blow air into the alarm.
I'm sorry dear, she said. I couldn't sleep and thought, why not get busy, she said.
Busy? Kath asked back. Why would a seven months old pregnant woman want to be busy at this time?
You really need to take things easy please, Kath said to her. Where's Dad?
Oh, he went to Bolton, would be back tomorrow evening, she answered.
But you know you should take things easy mum, Kath said to her
I know dear, Marion answered back, I just get frustrated when i cant sleep and cooking makes me feel better, she said opening the oven.
See; I made short bread biscuits, she showed Kath. Time was worth while, you would say?, Marion said.
What happened to buying them off the shelf, Kath asked.
A little encouragement here, Marion said smiling at her daughter.
I'm sorry mum, its just that, i don't like it when you stress yourself.
OK dear, I understand, I will go back to bed as soon as I clean up this mess, she said going over to the sink.
No, no, I will finish that, going to stand at the sink, you go to bed now, besides, I couldn't sleep too, she said.
Hmm, excited about Matt, Marion asked,
Yes, Kath blushed. I cant wait to see him.
Hm mm, Marion giggled.
Mum, go to bed, Kath said smiling at her mum.

Watching her mum going to her room, She turned to the sink to begin clearing up but the thought of her mum recent behaviour weigh heavily on her. First, the pregnancy was quite a surprise, at the age of 45, both her parent had given up on more babies, then comes the surprise. At first, Marion was happily surprised but after few months, she wasn't so much thrilled especially when Dave, her husband suddenly withdrew himself, he started travelling on business more, coming home late, even when he was at home, they hardly exchanged words. Kathleen loves her parents dearly but this silent wars between them was becoming unbearable especially when she sees how sad her mum was becoming, although Marion tries to put on the brave face but day after day, she was drenching in sadness, she felt all alone.

After cleaning up and making herself a cup of tea, she decided to go back to bed even though she had just a hour to sleep.

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Haven slept for an hour, Kathleen woke up to do her chores, after several hours to keep busy, she checked her phone again, its 3:30pm, Matt should be back now and she did made him promise to call her as soon as he get back to Colchester. But again, she decided not to get bother about this, maybe, he was so tired and went off to sleep.

You make such a fuss, she said to herself.
Kathleen, are you there? she heard her mum called.
Yes, she answered. Do you need anything?
Yes please, she answered, could you bring the post in here for me, she asked.
Thanks dear, Marion said taking the mail. Any news from Matt yet? she asked
No, Kath answered
Hes probably tired, Marion said
Hmm, Kath said and left the room.

Marion watched her daughter leave the house, she knows Kathleen has been doing her best to keep everything in place for few months now. She's grateful to God for the daughter and prays for the best for her. she always pray her daughter has the kind of great marriage she has but now, she's not so sure the prayer is such a good idea. She and Dave has always been so close, being in love has been a great venture for them both, they were best friends and lovers but for the past few months now, she's not so sure where they stand.
she doesn't understand why Dave can be so withdrawn towards this pregnancies, at least, it takes two to tangle, this pregnancy happened as a result of their love making even if it was unexpected considering all the precautions they took.

Marion sighs in her thought as she opened the posts. She opened the letter with the bank statements but to her astonishment, she saw something that didn't make sense.
A bill for Holiday Inn Hotel in Colchester for several nights for the past three months.

Why would Dave lodge in an hotel in the same town where he lives and he claims he was in business trip.
This is not happening, Marion said to herself. There's probably a best explanation for this, she assured herself.
doesn't understand why one day they are so much in love with you and the next, they are not.
As tears rolled from her eyes, she felt so much hurt and pain, not only because of the new discovery but because of what to come, an unknown future. Dave would be back in the evening but the though of even asking him was unclear.

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To be Continued


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Insight4u: It is well with my soul

Insight4u: It is well with my soul: "This song came to mind, an amazing song is it: When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever..."

It is well with my soul

1. This song came to mind, an amazing song is it:
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3. When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
   When sorrows like sea billows roll;
   Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
   It is well, it is well, with my soul.
   • Refrain:
     It is well, with my soul,
     It is well, it is well, with my soul.
4. Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
   Let this blest assurance control,
   That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
   And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
5. My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
   My sin, not in part but the whole,
   Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
   Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
6. For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
   If Jordan above me shall roll,
   No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
   Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
7. But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
   The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
   Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
   Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!
8. And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
   The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
   The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
   Even so, it is well with my soul.

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Life

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. Life is beauty, admire it. Life is bliss, taste it.Life is a dream, realize it. Life is a challenge, meet it. Life is a duty, complete it. Life is a game, play it. Life is a promise, fulfill it. Life is sorrow, overcome it. Life is a song, sing it.Life is a struggle, accept it. Life is a tragedy, confront it. Life is an adventure, dare it. Life is luck, make it. Life is too precious, do not destroy it. Life is life, fight for it. These words of Mother Teresa are quite true saying. Sometimes life takes the things we love and hold so dearly in our heart, some people just let go while other fight even with their last breath.

Don't be pushed around, decide what you want out of this life, don't give up and don't give in. You can make it.

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Today

Today...

Today is the day that the Lord has made, we should all rejoice and be glad in it. Speak in to today to bring good tidings to you and your family. The bible says, 'You shall decree a thing and it shall be established and light shall shine upon it'. The words of your mouth are powerful, they can pierce into the innermost of your being.

Arise and Shine for His light has come and the glory of the Lord is risen upon you. In the bible, when Lazarus had died, Jesus went to his tomb and commanded him to 'Come forth', In essence, he told him to Arise, Why? Because His light is come, which is Jesus. You can speak in to every dead situation to arise, no matter how dead or decay it may be, Lazarus was dead for four days, he was already smelling, he was wrapped in dead clothes, but when the words were spoken, it became life. The word of God are powerful, they are sharper than two edged sword.

Just like the way Jesus told them to take the dead clothes away from Lazarus, you need to take away the old thinking, the old mentality, the old behaviour, you need to clean yourself up, wash your self clean with the word of God and the cleansing power of the Holy Ghost because the glory of the Lord is risen upon you.

The whole creation is waiting for the manifestation of the Sons of God, You are a child of God so today, Arise and shine for His light is come and the Glory of the Lord is risen upon you.

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Silence in Relationship

Many of us try to get our partner's attention and so we give them the silence treatment. At one time or the other, we have given this treatment, thinking it will send the message to them. Silent treatment can happen for various reasons, you not only demonstrate silent by not talking, but also my our body language, attitude and behaviour, When we argue on our differences, at least we are talking which can bring about result along the line but when we give the silence treatment, nothing is been said except it sends the wrong signal to either couple.

''Let’s be careful to name the problem and call it what it is: The Silent Treatment is a form of punishment. This is not to be confused with feeling unsure about your feelings and going to your own corner to get a break – that is understandable and normal. Sometimes, however, you may feel angry and take it out on your partner by shutting down completely and not letting him or her in at all. You might be so angry, in fact, that you will hardly say a word.

Often men and women who issue the Silent Treatment know it hurts their partners – and that’s part of why they do it. They shut down to express their anger rather than express it fairly, through words and mutual, intimate communication. In other words, when the Silent One shuts down, he doesn’t even give his partner a chance.

If you are guilty of resorting to the Silent Treatment, I must call a spade a spade –it’s a cheap and easy way to hurt your partner. All the while, it turns you into a child who is incapable of communicating in your relationship like a grown-up. If you’re in a relationship, do the honorable, adult thing and give your partner a chance to talk to you. Talk to your partner – share – and work productively on your relationship''.(Dr Seth relationship & love advice)

Have you ever given your partner the silent treatment? Or have you ever been on the receiving end?
Share with us how you felt and what to do in this situation.

What God is said to do in your Life.

What God is said to do in your life, the devil can't stop it, he can't stand it and there is nothing he can do about it. The promises of God are yea and Amen. For the Lord your God will bless you as he has promised, and you will lend to many nations but will borrow from none. You will rule over many nations but none will rule over you.

Sometimes, it seems like we are going in circles in life, one disappointment and the other, we often wonder what God is doing in all these, if He's left us to our fate or taking His time in responding to us and probably forgotten us. Life's disappointment can pull us so far from trusting God especially when we have done all we can do and have no other help, we have been faithful to His words, cried in prayer and so waited on His help. Has he forgotten his promises to bless you and make us great? to lift us up lest you dash our foot against a stone? to fight for us while we hold our peace?

One thing I know beyond all reasonable doubt is that, God never fails, His faithfulness endures forever, Whatsoever His promises are to you will sure stand, nothing can stop it. It may not look like it now but trust his love, He always come true. Remember, His thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways His ways. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are His ways higher than your ways and His  thought than your thoughts. As the rain and the snow come down from heaven and do now return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish so that it yields seeds for the sower and bread for the eater, so is His word that goes from His mouth: It will not return to Him empty but will accomplish what He desire and achieve the purpose for which He sent it.

Remember, what God is said to do in your life, the devil cant stop it, he cant stand it and there is nothing he can do about it.

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4 D's to Success.

"He who is silent is forgotten; he who does not advance falls back; he who stops is overwhelmed; out distanced, crushed; he who ceases to grow becomes smaller; he who leaves off, gives up; the condition of standing still is the beginning of the end." Henri Fr.

I am yet to meet an individual who does not wish to be successfully. It's very easy to wish for something, all you have to do is sleep and dream on it. Success, however is not about wishing; which is just an illusion that what you wish for is actually true, but rather working hard towards what you wish you had is the main deal.  In few paragraphs, I would like to show you the 4 D's to help you to reach your purpose in life.

First is DESIRE, which is simply to express a wish for something. Whatever you want to be in life or what you want, you need to first desire it, a longing for such. you need a drive to keep you going. Desire is the key to motivation but it's determination and commitment to an unrelenting pursuit of your goal, a commitment to excellence, that will enable you to attain the success you seek If you however really want something, you need to have the gut to take everything to obtain it.

Second is DEDICATION, a commitment in attaining. you need to dedicate yourself to the work you have. for example, if I desire to be a singer, I need to put all my strength, my devotion into practice to achieve this aim. I will need to work hard, put all my resources into committing my self to this task.

Next is DETERMINATION, a firmness of purpose. Determination helps you to stand your ground regardless of storms on your way in achieving your purpose.Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try. Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful people with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The Slogan 'press on' has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race. Come rain, come shine, you need to be determined to pressed forward your goal, nothing can stop you from achieving your purpose, only yourself can be your own enemy. Success is not final, failure is not fatal; it is the courage to continue that counts.       

Final is DISCIPLINE, a bridge between goals and accomplishment. For you to accomplish your goal, however small they may be, you need to discipline yourself, Disciple represses the weakness in you, it helps you to be focused about your goals. Joyce Meyer said in her book, the secret to true success, 'when discipline is sown, like a good seed, it yields a harvest of things that fulfil and satisfy is, the things that makes us happy and release peace and joy in our lives'.

I challenged you to take one your tasks out of your numerous lists of things to do ( you know what I mean), try the 4 D's, Desire, Dedication, Determination and Discipline. Shout out your dream, let it be known, proceed in accomplishment and stand firm. This day I pray for the spirit of excellence, wisdom, power, sound mind and peace upon your life in Jesus name. Have Fun.

Regards